tell the time: March 31st
"we have always wanted a child, want to be pregnant"
Zhang Ziyu house collapsed in the earthquake, built a new house in second years, their home is the first family in the post - earthquake village to live a new house.
our village lost a lot of children in the earthquake, many of them chose to regenerate, and now they are reading grade 1-2. Up to now, there are two couples without children, one is us, the other is divorced, and they have gone out to work. When
earthquake, my husband and I worked in Tibet. Knowing that there was an earthquake at home, we hurried to call our mother at home. Later, the neighbor's phone was connected, and the neighbor said, "come back."
we thought that something must have happened and we would return to Mianzhu in May 14th. When they arrived at the village, the houses collapsed, and the daughters' middle schools in Hanwang town collapsed. The parents were outside the ruins, shouting the names of the children. We saw the body excavated and looked at it.
until May 16th, the ruins were basically cleared up and no daughter's remains were found. We had a glimmer of hope at that time. Would our daughter not be in the classroom, then we would go to relatives and ask them one by one.
we don't know how our daughter died. I saw the remains of my daughter's girlfriends. When they were dug up, they looked good and no injuries. They should be covered up.
before coming home from Ganzi, the workers knew about the earthquake and donated a little money to us, about 1000 yuan. Knowing that my daughter was gone, my husband spread the money to the sky and said, "what's the meaning of the money if the child is gone?" When the neighbors saw it, they picked up the money and sent it to us. In
2007, my daughter told us that her classmates had built a new house, and she was embarrassed to call her classmates to play at home. We know, she is exciting. We borrowed 50 thousand yuan to redecorate the old house. Who knows second years, the newly decorated house has collapsed.
second years after the earthquake, the new house was built, and just moved into the new house for the new year. Our family is the first family in the village to live in a new house after the earthquake. Cover the new house a little subsidy, loan 20 thousand yuan, also borrowed a bit, now the debt is over.
daughter did not read junior high school before, her husband worked in Tibet, I do farm work at home. When my daughter read junior high school, she thought of spending a lot of money in the future. I went to Tibet with my husband, and my daughter and grandma lived together. In Tibet, my husband drills in the mines. I cook for the workers. We earn more than 5000 yuan a month. When
was killed, my daughter was 16 years old. When she was in junior three, she was very sensible. She was six meters tall. Every Friday, she will wash her clothes in school and come back clean. She will not bring her dirty clothes back, saying that she can not let her grandmother wash them. Every weekend, we will call, every time she will tell me: rest assured, do not go out fooling around.
her daughter is a little introverted, her mouth is sweet, and I don't have much to say. Every time I and she say, "have a good reading and listen to grandma", but she has a good relationship with her father.
daughter is gone. It feels like the sky is falling. It's meaningless. Others have been guiding us, not your family, to be happy and not to be bored at home every day.
after her daughter's departure, it was a great blow to my husband. He was like "Crazy". He didn't want to live. He didn't eat for a few days. Later, when he saw other children married, he would cry once.
there's one thing, the husband has been regretting. The husband did not let his daughter read a technical school, said that she was required to attend high school and university. The husband has always regretted this and said that if he had asked his daughter to enroll in a technical school, her daughter would have escaped.
we have never been to the cemetery in Hanwang Town, nor do we know the name of the carved daughter. Every time we worship, such as Tomb Sweeping Day and Spring Festival, we will choose a burning paper in the direction of Hanwang town near our home.
we always wanted a child to go to a hospital in Chengdu. The treatment was free and the cost of driving and accommodation was free. The hospital has been running for a year or two, and has not been pregnant. I think it was my daughter who was killed, but she was not in the mood.
in recent two or three years, Zhang Ziyu loved to dance the square dance and learned to paint.
at that time, I also wanted to be a test tube, but my husband did not agree. It's all about the big things he said, I'm on him. The professor in the hospital did his work without saying it. Husband thinks everything should be fastidious about fate. There is no need to push too hard. He still wants to be in his arms.
I also considered adoption, and my husband did not agree. He said, "none of us has been there."
now I also take a look at it, let it be natural, nursed itself well, free to go out for a stroll. Our family is in the middle of the village. It is a victim family and enjoys minimum living allowances. After
I am now at home alone, apart from taking care of 3 acres of land and ordering vegetables, and I have plenty of spare time. In recent two or three years, I like to dance square dance, and I know a group of dancers. At ordinary times, we chat and relax together and dance together at night. They also taught me to paint a light make-up. I will have to dance with them later, and we will go to other villages the day after tomorrow.