tell the time: March 30th
"self strength is the only way out"
before the earthquake, my husband works in the town coal mine, he is on the ground, I sell the vegetables to Hanwang Town, and also sell some small department stores in the town.
to the house of Chuan Xiu did not collapse, after reinforcement, living so far.
the day of the earthquake, I sold things in Hanwang town and suddenly felt the ground swayed. I had all the things confiscated and ran back home a kilometre. The house was built in 1997, but it did not collapse at the time, leaving only cracks.
My son, Zhang Jinglong, was 20 years old. He just graduated from a technical school and worked in a workshop in the town. My son's head was pressed down and I didn't dare to go over to see him.
son went away, Hanwang town was destroyed, and I did not go to stall again. In those years, the words didn't want to say, more annoying than death. There is a picture of a son who is afraid to see it.
I often dream of my son, or when he was little. When my son was young, he was very sticky. My old love asked me questions. It's strange. In my dream, I know my son is dead. I wonder why my son has appeared again.
after the earthquake, my body became worse, my blood and blood were blocked, my skin was yellow, and I was afraid to go out. My husband and I really want to go to the hospital and have no success. My husband and I feel that everything depends on fate and no test tube. Later, my body was poor, and I didn't have the heart to adopt like any other family. I felt I could hardly protect myself. I analyze the difference between the body and the psychological function.
body is bad, I do not go out, close the door every day. When someone knocks at the door, I will not open the door unless it is confirmed as an acquaintance. Today is not an acquaintance to take you, I will not open the door, and will not be interviewed. My mindset is not to ask for help, nor to be afraid of people. My husband's mentality is better than mine. He goes out to play every day.
now, I am much better, but I have to spit once every few minutes. For the first two years, I like to dance to square dance. My right leg is not very comfortable now. I can't jump.
now let go, and envy other families' grandchildren. Dare not have any wish, one day is one day. I think that being strong is the only way out, not relying on others. Lying on the bed is also a problem for others.
I don't have any financial pressure right now. The house is an old house in the past. It did not collapse after the earthquake. After the earthquake, I worked as a community cleaner for 3 years. Now I have a monthly pension of 1200 yuan. My husband retired in 2014. He has a monthly pension of more than 2000 yuan.
the son is buried in the cemetery of Hanwang town. We will go to see him every time Qingming and Spring Festival. On his birthday, I burned some paper money near his home.